i feel bad

this is actually sambungan sadness part 2. 

ermm.. patut ke buat x tahu je ngan girl nih.. sebab ak dah terasa sgt2 ngan die. die mcm buat x peduli kat ak lgsg? pdhal ak slalu jge hati die. urmm.. sedihnye ble kte anggap org tu kwn baik tp die x pun. hari ni saje g kat facebook die..
status die, die ckp everything is about her family, her bf of course and and and her school friend. full stop. sedih je bce entry tu. i feel like i would like to cry. ak x penting langsung dalam hidup die. persahabatan tu xde makne. xde effect utk die langsung. mungkin ak je yg lebih2. die anggap ak ni org yg pernah wujud dlm hidup die only for one year.shit! i'm crying while write this..


maybe this relationship mmg xde makne. ak rse ak mcm.. mcm.. org yg die amek kisah time nak exam je. hari2 lain bubyee.. i didnt know you at all.
x tau mcm mne nak express my feel right now. maybe blog ni je la tempat mengadu. malas nak cerita dengan org lain and susahkan dorg maybe benda nih remeh temeh dan i dont feel that people follow my blog. so let me write n express my feeling here.




x tau la knape i sedih sgt when this girl done this to me. as i said that i'm quite sensitive and especially in any relationship. i hate people yg tak amek kesah pon pasal what other people feel. i would like to write something but i dont know what is appropiate things that i should write here. i dont want make people sad because of me. 

i write a comment at her facebook tp die layan kwn2 sekolah die je without kisahkan aku langsung. urmm... dah jd 2 kali. maybe die x prasaan kot. klau both of us on9 x pernah sekali pon die akn tegur aku dulu. maybe ak nih menyebok je kot. kcau die je. i wish die bce blog ni n realize ape yg aku rase.
aku ingat lagi when she feel sad die akn call aku n aku akn cheer up die balik.
maybe ak buat semua tu x setanding ape yg kwn2 die buat kat die. 
mmg ak knal die x lame.. tp.. ntah la.. susah nak kate. 
aku dah anggap die kwn baik, my besties. 

kenape die ignore ak terus?? aku x cukup baik ke nak menjadi seseorang kwn?
maybe tak cukup baik lgi.. senang cite ak mmg jenis syg kawan. tp aku x boleh nak buat ape if die x suke aku.   naik sem 3 ni ktorg sgt jrang contact each other.
dlu mase aku kat arau ak slalu telephone die. tp dah transfer balik shah alam ak jd buzy sikit so jrg la dpt contact. tp.. knape die x pernah pon terfikir nak call ak? msg ke? semua tu xde.. 


kenapa? kenapa? aku teruk sgt ke? 
x layak untuk bergelar sahabat? mungkin bg die mmg aku x layak di gelar sahabat. kalau la kau tahu aku sedang tulis psal ko dan tgah nangis pasal ko jgk. tgok kat fb die byk pic die dgn kwn2 sekolah die dulu.. they seems so happy together. jelous nye. but i totally frustrated ttg entry kat fabebook tu.
its acctually more to sedih. frust tu ade tp sedih tu lebih lgi. 


+ve thinking : maybe die dah lme x habiskan mse dgn kwn2 die and die x lupe aku sebenarnye tp die cume buzy


-ve thinking/ realiti : die x ingat pon ak ni wujud n sebetul-betul nya mmg die x anggap aku kwn pon. ak je lebih2.





have a nice day kwn2...